Showing posts with label about me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label about me. Show all posts

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Fat Cat...


"Fat Cat Fat Cat Sitting on the Door Matt... "
(This is the rhyme the kids used to taunt me with when I was in year one.)

As many people who know me will tell you I have an impeccable memory, and I can remember almost every single insult, comment and snicker directed at me or said behind my back about my weight/height and size.

It's really hard being a 'larger' than normal child growing up... Not that I was really big when I was younger it's just I was bigger than the others. In height I towered over the other kids at school and have always been a 'big solid girl' so my mother would say....

As a adult last year I was a 'very fat cat' and I faced a big dilemma.... clothing.

I reached the top.... size. (ever) in the store.. and I was just struggling to squeeze into the few items I could gather together in the 'shame area' of the department store.. 'the fat girls section'. (where no normal person wants to be seen).

I hated clothes shopping but loved clothes.. and have always dreamt of beautiful dresses to wear.

Two days ago I needed to do some last minute shopping, my fiance's work is paying for us to fly up to Mackay for a work dinner. The hotel and flights are booked everything is set yet........... nothing to wear.. no dress to impress...! This is the first time I will be meeting allot of my fiance's work mates and his boss, I want to look the best I can for both him and I. I want to look beautiful for my man just like any other girl.

I rushed off to the shops after work yet have had no luck in my typical 'fat girls' clothing sections... the shop is bare. not a dress in sight, at least not one that you would wear to a dinner occasion. I was feeling pretty down I even had bought a new necklace the weekend before expecting to match it with a pretty black something dress.

Out of desperation I walked into a store I would never buy at... It's known for its sometimes bad quality of clothing.. as I walked into this store they had LOTS OF DRESSES!! lol!!!! Yet all the dresses my size had already been bought.... as each store only usually stocks one of these in the largest sizes usually it's a fight to get it first. there was one nice little black dress.. similar to what I was looking for - and it's something that would go really well with my new necklace.. BUT.... it was 3 sizes smaller than the usual size I would try to squeeze into.

I thought I would just 'give it a try' and see how it goes... much to my delight!!!! it FITS!!!!!.. not only does it fit.... it looks great!!!!! not only does it fit, look great ... BUT........ its also half price!!!!!!!! lucky or what....!!!

Good bye potato sack dress....
this year...
this Xmas
I'm gonna be strutting my stuff in confidence and style next to the man of my dreams :) xox.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Once Upon a Time....


Once Upon a Time...

There was a young girl who dreamed of marrying the man of her dreams, dressed in a most beautiful dress of all the land. Everyone would come to celebrate the event with this girl as they were happy to see her so happy with love and joy. Everyone would stare at her as she walked up to her prince with cordial delight, they would all comment 'Oh my isn't she the most beautiful beauty of them all'...

Now back to reality.. hah

Ever since I was a little girl I was in search for the man of my dreams.. some dark handsome doctor was the type of man I had decided I would like to marry at aged 3.... lol

He's not a doctor but he is dark, handsome and the most amazing man I have ever meet in my entire life. I am so blessed to be marrying my best friend, my hero, my love, and the person who has always supported me in what ever I would like to do with out any hesitations.

And I know he loves me for who I am, thick of thin.....

Yet I never expected to be this 'thick' for my wedding which has been one of my main motivators for the 10 week challenge. I want to be the princess at my wedding not the pumpkin :)

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Week 2 : Day 7



Hot pants...

While I was at mums place I was trying on some of my old clothes that I had packed away to see if any of them fit me now...

My favorite denim jeans shorts ( but not as short as kylie's hot pants thank goodness! lol) which previously I could not get the zip up... now comfortably fits!

Today it was a bit hard with my diet, especially around people who are eating cake, ice cream and lollies.. hah
temptation plus! But I convinced myself that that cake would taste disgusting... and it worked.. I stayed strong! :)

Water: 2.5 Liters
Exercise: -
Work out Energy Level: 4/10
Mood: average
Encouragement: My old jeans

Week 2 : Day 6

EAT PRAY LOVE....

Went to the Sunshine Coast which was miserable and practically flooding all weekend. Stayed with my family while my fiance is away in Egypt. (He had to suddenly go back home a few weeks ago as his mother was terminally ill and needed emergency surgery.)

I 'had' planned to do some exercise or swimming.. hah ummm but instead spend time with my little sisters Alana & Renee, aged 12 and 9 years. Also had a girls night our with mum which was nice, we went to the cinemas and saw 'EAT PRAY LOVE'.. and made me want to eat Italian! lol

On the positive side... MY BUT COULD FIT IN THE CINEMA CHAIR! & it didn't hurt trying to squeeze it in between the hand rails... very happy! lol yay!

Water: 2 Liters
Exercise: -
Work out Energy Level: 5/10
Mood: Good.
Encouragement: bum fits into seats.. lol

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Goals...



"It's not what you loose it's what you gain"- Kassi Isaac

While I was at the gym tonight I was focusing on a quote that was written on the wall. Yet I do not totally agree with the version... so I modified it! I think it's more inspiring to 'gain' something than to 'loose' something. flipping it around from feeling you have 'lost'... to you 'have more of.. or been rewarded'. When you loose weight in general and eat healthy their are many things to 'gain'... General health! ENERGY! Encouragement, Recognition, looks, motivation, respect.. and much much more!

Sharing with you a picture I found on the internet of a girl who I'm visually setting my motivation and goal towards. She's a size 14, not skinny yet toned and healthy looking... this is my goal! I hope to gain it! :)

Friday, October 1, 2010

Oh Marilyn...

Growing up I loved to watch the old fashioned black and white movies, especially the ones staring Shirley Temple and Marilyn Monroe. I remember when I was four years old watching Marilyn in some gorgeous tight fitting ball gown and which deliciously hugged her big round voluptuous hips! It was then I swung my legs up on the back of the lounge resting my head on the floor facing the television. I Then placed my hands in the prayer position and squeezed my eyes shut and begged god to make my hips big and round just like Marilyn's when I grew older...

Moral to the story.. Be careful for what you wish for!
Please I take this back.. make them skinny and small!!! ( perhaps I need to hang upside down again for this to come true...? lol)

Which brings me to my challenge... the 10 week weight loss challenge....